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Like the Sunshine (Two Year Anniversery on WordPress)

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Well now, this is special!

I’m posting tonight because I received a super special notification from the happy chappies at WordPress.com. Two years ago, I started this blog as a method of journaliing my musings and other ramblings as a way to manage stress. At the time of this blog’s creation, I had been faced with a lot of dreadful uncertainties that would leave me with knots in my tummy for nights on end. I had only just started my long distance relationship with an absolutely lovely girl and was afraid that we would never meet or be able to make it happen. My studies at both university and a community college had reduced me to a state resembling that of a nervous wreck; hair tearing and all.

The year after, my relationship had become stable. My classes had become manageable. I had begun my student work placement and had learnt more than I ever did in high school. About life, about love and about the world beyond high school. For once, my life seemed right. I was at peace.

And now, in 2016, many things have changed. My graduation, the fated meeting in Lover’s Arrival, the beginnings of my search for employment, the collapse of my relationship …

All of it proof that we are forever learning by experience. That the wildest and most unexpected things can happen, even when plans have been made and are seemingly set in stone. Life is what happens when you are busy making plans. And that, Mr. Lennon, is something that we can both agree on. Being the tired man that I am, i am not sure what I am supposed to be writing anymore here. The paragraphs that come after this were actually written first. This post is a mess, chaotic, just like life. It wasn’t planned. I had a general idea and the structure of the post all in my mind and then as I began to write it down, different thoughts flooded into my mind and altered those plans. Or took a sledgehammer to them. Completely.

This might sound awfully corny but I gotta write it …

In the past two years, I have become rather fond of moths. Now, I never liked moths as a kid. I always thought they were grotesque and wouldn’t think twice about shooing them away with a dainty wave of the hand. They were ugly to most people. Undesirable. And I often considered myself to be of a similar calibre. But all it took was one mental comparison, one alternate trail of thought, and my love for them began to blossom. There are those in the world that see beauty where others simply cannot. Those that find something beautiful where nothing of the sort can be found and observed by the average person. And I had the pleasure of meeting a few of these cherishable souls. The absolute honor of calling one my teacher, another one my friend, my lover …

Of course, you. My readers.

These people and their stories, their wisdom, their kindness and their love formed my coccoon and now I too, have become a one of these souls.

I’d like to thank you all for reading my blog over the past two years and do hope that you stick around for another.

May all the love in the world be yours. And remember, everybody’s gotta learn sometime. 

You know which song this is going to link you to … 

(It’s 3 AM and I sure could use some sleep … )

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Back on the Hoverboard for 2016!

Hey hey! It’s been so long!

 

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Hope everyone had a Happy New Year doing whatever it was they were doing and that you got to see tons of fireworks. Me? Well, there was a fire ban here so fireworks weren’t allowed. Australian summers are nuts, yo.

So it’s 2016! Another year of mystery! We’ve officially passed the mid 2010s mark and entered the second half of the decade! The Xbox 360 is ten years old and Pokemon is 20. I can already feel my hair receding!

But nevertheless, 2016 is shaping up to be a very exciting year. The next wave of mobile phone processors will be coming out so that new smartphone you got for Christmas will be obsolete in moments. No sign of hover cars though so I am not sure how I feel about that but at least we’ll get some more cool hoverboad technology. And not that cop out ‘balance board’ stuff that plague VINEs and Tumblr posts, I mean actual hovering hover boards. No wheels, just pure … hoveringness. Also, the Nintendo NX. It’ll be good to see what that is all about.

Speaking of 2016, the wonderful waifu will be coming around to visit me Down Under so I am majorly excited for that! Not sure what we’re going to get up to exactly but I do hope that a ton of travel and general hanging out is involved. You know, all the good stuff. Might also need to take her out clothes/gift shopping since I still feel like I owe her for the lack of gifts i sent her last Christmas. Do girlfriends take card?

Anyways, 2016 will be a significant year for people in one way or another. I am really hoping that a lot of people take the opportunity to try out some new stuff this year. Maybe take a gamble or two, pick up a new hobby and see how that goes … that kinda stuff. It wouldn’t hurt to try it.

Me? I’m gonna give YouTubing a shot. And finish school. My third year of college and I’m ready to tackle it head on!

 

 

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Speed Posting To Raise Boredom Awareness 

Hey hey hey hey. 

I’m afraid I am going to have to be lighting quick with how swiftly I get this post out before my ride arrives so I’ll make like a Bugatti Veyron and do 0 to 60 in 3 seconds. 

As you all know, boredom is a problem that is plaguing the entire human race. At its most vulnerable moment, boredom affects the suffering citizens of the first world in the most excruciatingly painful ways. Forget things like starvation, poverty and AIDS; It’s boredom we need to vanquish first before we can even consider donating money to the aforementioned causes. 

By donating three difficult monthly payments of 14 dollars and exactly 21 cents, you can help those stuck in the pit of tedium by donating to the Breaking Boredom Foundation. 

Do your part and help us raise funds to find and develop a cure for boredom today! 



“Stop complaining on Tumblr and go outside.”


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“Nobody hits harder than life … “

Nothing like starting the New Year off with a bit of a training session! I am surprised I’ve come so far! Being able to barely make an effort to do 10 consecutive push ups a month ago to becoming the 60 push-up standard demon that I am today is just nuts! This training stuff actually works!

But now, allow me to stow away my excitement and wish you all :

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!  *yay!* 

Yes, and just when I had finally gotten all settled down with the usual rut of marking ‘2014’ as the year in the dates section of school papers and worksheets, the succeeding year rolls around to break me out of the Familiar Zone and cut my partially ‘slow’ self no breaks whatsoever. But enough about my personal life: Let’s talk about our fair 2014 for a bit.

For me personally, 2014 was somehow able to wind up both the soul crushingly worst and yet, most productive and character strengthening year of my life so far. Being fresh out of high school to already facing my inevitable second year of both University and TAFE studies … man, the months just flew by. In terms of my academics, I certainly performed better than I ever did in my previous two years of secondary college. But the reason why may have to wait until it’s own warranted post … and a rather lengthy one it will be, let me tell you.

Relationships ultimately seemed to crumble into indistinguishable pieces before my very eyes in what felt like a form of the most inhumane emotional torture. Slow and painful, to say the least. It felt like everyone had become a ghost or had never existed at all. And often, during times of immense heartache and sorrow, I would often find myself looking back to the burning bridge that led to the other side, where the better times were. And despite my continuous empty headed march forward, I would find myself unknowingly trudging back again, back to that land of magnets and miracles.  In all honesty, for a majority of the year (and despite being in a relationship at the time), i felt no more than alive. It was like I were living simply to exist and nothing more. Sure, I had my studies. I had my friends and I had my lover. But at the time, if they had faded into nothingness, I don’t think my excessively sedated self would’ve even picked up on it. I was sleepwalking through life. 

It eventually came to a head. What felt like years upon years of constant hurting and a seemingly unquenchable emptiness had brought me to the darkest place that we all fear to fall into.  The one place in which we wish we’d simply cease to exist rather than have our minds swallowed by the unrelenting abyss. And after spending some time in this lightless place, I had given myself two solid options :

“I could just remain here. I could just stay here and give up, like so many others have. I could potentially scar the hearts and minds of both friends and family, starring blankly at the wall as a broken soul or worse. … ”

Or,

“There is no light, but I am sure as hell that I can conjure up even the tiniest flame to guide me. I could find my way out of this place, out of this torrent of blackness, and find my old self along the way … ”

If I had of picked the first option, I might not have been around to create this blog, or write this post. 

Before I knew it, I found myself making changes and taking chances that I never ever thought that I would be capable of making. I had taken up martial arts again with a friend that I met from class. I was able to actually live to see the day where I’d be able to spend time with my ENTIRE family and most of my friends. I would meet an absolutely wonderful girl who would go on to reach out and help pull me through the tides and to the shore, despite owing me nothing.

And last, but not least, I would start this WordPress blog. I would read the wonderful posts of my followers and enjoy everything that they have to offer. You people would go on to unknowingly inspire me, stir up hope in my heart and show me a whole different rainbow coloured spectrum of lights to see life through. And for that, I can’t thank you enough. You are all interesting, intelligent, determined and very creative and informative people. It has been an honour, so far, to be able to both read what you have written and to have you read what I have posted.

Don’t forget to take care of yourselves and remember: When in doubt, keep pushing forward.

“We await your return, warrior.” 

– Dandy ❤

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Coming Back to Life.

Hey hey!

I hope you are all doing rather well. And I also hope that you all had a very Merry Christmas as well. I had been meaning to try and go out of my way to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, even my WordPress followers with a little post, but then I got a little lost down the long and winding road of life. You know how it is.

So three wholes days of non-stop Christmas lunch and dinner related delicacies intertwined with running into old faces and calling up far away friends, I am finally back into the swing of things.  This post isn’t going to be long at all. Hell, I am pretty much done with writing it. I just wanted to wish everybody a bit of a late Merry Christmas and if I am unable to post during the occasion, a very Happy New Year.

Be sure to share as much moments of love and laughter with your friends and family as you can til the year’s end.

Peace, love and all the good stuff.

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– Dandy ❤

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“Where did I go wrong … ?”

I lost my drafts. Somewhere along in WordPress oblivion.

I had originally written a whole three paragraphs as a post regarding my experiences with ambient music and how I came in contact with the genre, as well as what possessed me to don my uncool shades and start producing in one of the most low mainstream genres of music of all time. But I think it would be much better, and far more easier, to write about how frustrated I am about losing that post as well as how infrequent my posting has become.

I have never really been too big on social networking. I mean, I would update a status daily but it was usually no more than a sentence. Going maybe a few years back, I think my enthusiasm towards social networking was a far brighter flame since it was all so new at the time. Would you believe that I used Windows Live Messenger/MSN Messenger more than I used Facebook Chat? I only had like 3 or 4 friends on there that I would chat to anyway. And honestly, that’s all I really need. I could have hundreds and hundreds of contacts and only really talk to one or two on a daily basis. Recently I had tried to broaden that number and reach out to people that I normally don’t converse with on a regular basis out of good will. But it seems to have just fallen flat. I really cannot be bothered with typing extravagant responses nor can I stand waiting around for replies. It’s nothing personal. I am just that sort of person … now more than ever.

Sadly they killed off Messenger and unfortunately I don’t have enough Skype contacts to even constitute a ‘list’. Now I get stuck catching a glimpse of that dreadful News Feed only to find myself trawling through it out of an unbeatable curiosity that something good might be there.

Spoiler: There isn’t. Ever. At all. 

This brings me closer and closer, edging nearer ever so slightly, towards the idea of buying a Non-Intel Mac or a bit newer just so that I can browse the web if I really need to while not having the luxury of indulging in any of these procrastination boosting networks. I recently disbanded my entire fleet of social networking sites (except for this one and my SoundCloud, of course) in order to just obtain some peace and quiet. I can’t be updating all of them on a regular basis, nor do I have the motivation to. And with things like training for karate, my recent painting fetish and … well, shameless video gaming during times of unproductively (It’s a long running guilty pleasure that keeps me from actually finding part time work.)

To close up this stale mess of a post, getting rid of a few of the vices on my spare time has ultimately helped me to become a productive person once again. And honestly, I really couldn’t recommend anything else as a cure to those with a lack of motivation. It’s absolutely great to stop dragging yourself through the virtual world and instead, prance and happily skip about in the real one.

And this is coming from a nineteen year old.

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“And in my hour of darkness… “

I normally freak out and lose my cool completely.

If only I had a ‘Mother Mary’ like figure to whisper words of wisdom and encouragement to me. Honestly, if there was a visible scale that vividly displayed my confidence going from ten to zero, that needle would flick to the starting end faster than your initial reaction of shock upon being greeted by the unexpected ‘incorrect answer’ buzzer.

So I was applying for a job online, just filling out some details and uploading the resume and all. I haven’t had a part time job before in the past. Back in Year 10, there were few people that were actually motivated enough to go to school AND work a job all without crumbling underneath the debris of any form of social anxiety or stress disorder. One year past high school and I am seemingly finding myself metaphorically winded of any courage that I might’ve had at the start of the application process. Now being someone that hasn’t had to apply for work before, the crushing blow came in the form of the thought of having all of these obligations and responsibilities (as well as people to deal with and times to keep) which ultimately ended with my confidant former self, the same one that was throwing punches and performing karate related exercises without intimidation, becoming a completely sweaty faced and nail biting wreck. This little anxiety attack not only led me to cancel my application, but fill my mind with all sorts of social fears and dreads related to incompetence.

And now, I just feel so disappointed in myself. In one way, I can be as fearless and extraverted as anything and in another, I am a cowering mute.

To be honest, I am thinking about printing out my resume and cover letter and just handing it into the store in person. I would be far more comfortable doing that rather than have to sit through all of these tests and preference sheets that my browser barely supports. No pressure, guys. It’s not like if I leave it for too long or if the internet cuts out, the test completely locks up which essentially prevents me from ever doing it again.

Really. This is nuts. Who the hell thought that online job applications were a good idea? Don’t you want to meet and chat with your potential employee face to face?

Anyways, I am also thinking about just working a much smaller store within the community. Maybe something along the lines of a small business, like a grocer, a cafe or maybe even a clothes store. Actually, the clothes store one wouldn’t be such a bad gig. Despite being one of those people that would totally just walk and sleep in their training clothes, I am quite the ruffle shirt wearing fashionista when it comes to the threads. Mmm!

Yeah, I think I am feeling a bit better about this now …

*deep sigh*

Sometimes, I wish I were still back in high school …