Before I start this little post, I thought I would list all of the things that I have obtained since I graduated from tertiary college back in July 2016, just so that this post doesn’t come of as entirely negative. So without further adue, the stuff which I got after I finished uni includes:
Two flashy certificates with wax seal stamps (A degree and a diploma)
A beanie from one of my colleges.
A four-colour pen. (The tutor had a spare)
An appreciation for volunteer work.
An apperciation for working in the social work/community development sector in general.
A mechanical keyboard for my shitty six year old Mac.
A new phone that now, is kinda useless to me for anything other than making/receiving calls.
A mean looking ‘Middle Eastern beard’
Another friend group.
A taste for pale ales and lagers.
A taste for alcohol in general.
A black pair of super skinny jeans. (Yeowch!)
A fondness for the beach and the ocean.
Lady friends in Italy. (Thanks Instagram!)
Lady friends in Turkey. (Again, Thanks Insta!)
A license to sell/serve alcohol. (I could become a bartender maybe … ?)
I am sure there are way more but I honestly can’t think of them off the top of my head. Now then, why don’t we make it fair and list the things that I did NOT receive or obtain after my graduation?
Despite applying for work like mad, nothing seems to be going my way. A lot of people have told me that going back to Uni would be a waste of another two or three years and would put me at risk of being considered ‘overqualified’ for my field of choice. Of course, I would take any job at this point in time. Hence why I’ve found myself completing short course after short course to obtain some extra skills in the employability department. (License to Serve, First Aid, a course on how to make coffees/cappucinos at a bar/cafe/restaraunt, a certificate in training and assessment, etc)
People keep telling me that something must come along eventually. Let’s just hope that these people are right, and are also talking from experience.
Anyways, that’s my post for the month/year/decade. What have YOU been up to?
I’m posting tonight because I received a super special notification from the happy chappies at WordPress.com. Two years ago, I started this blog as a method of journaliing my musings and other ramblings as a way to manage stress. At the time of this blog’s creation, I had been faced with a lot of dreadful uncertainties that would leave me with knots in my tummy for nights on end. I had only just started my long distance relationship with an absolutely lovely girl and was afraid that we would never meet or be able to make it happen. My studies at both university and a community college had reduced me to a state resembling that of a nervous wreck; hair tearing and all.
The year after, my relationship had become stable. My classes had become manageable. I had begun my student work placement and had learnt more than I ever did in high school. About life, about love and about the world beyond high school. For once, my life seemed right. I was at peace.
And now, in 2016, many things have changed. My graduation, the fated meeting in Lover’s Arrival, the beginnings of my search for employment, the collapse of my relationship …
All of it proof that we are forever learning by experience. That the wildest and most unexpected things can happen, even when plans have been made and are seemingly set in stone. Life is what happens when you are busy making plans. And that, Mr. Lennon, is something that we can both agree on. Being the tired man that I am, i am not sure what I am supposed to be writing anymore here. The paragraphs that come after this were actually written first. This post is a mess, chaotic, just like life. It wasn’t planned. I had a general idea and the structure of the post all in my mind and then as I began to write it down, different thoughts flooded into my mind and altered those plans. Or took a sledgehammer to them. Completely.
This might sound awfully corny but I gotta write it …
In the past two years, I have become rather fond of moths. Now, I never liked moths as a kid. I always thought they were grotesque and wouldn’t think twice about shooing them away with a dainty wave of the hand. They were ugly to most people. Undesirable. And I often considered myself to be of a similar calibre. But all it took was one mental comparison, one alternate trail of thought, and my love for them began to blossom. There are those in the world that see beauty where others simply cannot. Those that find something beautiful where nothing of the sort can be found and observed by the average person. And I had the pleasure of meeting a few of these cherishable souls. The absolute honor of calling one my teacher, another one my friend, my lover …
Of course, you. My readers.
These people and their stories, their wisdom, their kindness and their love formed my coccoon and now I too, have become a one of these souls.
I’d like to thank you all for reading my blog over the past two years and do hope that you stick around for another.
May all the love in the world be yours. And remember, everybody’s gotta learn sometime.
First of all, please excuse the title. It’s the first thing that came to mind. You would think that after all this time, what with my complete and utter lack of posts and blogging, that I would write something a bit more relevant like “I’M BACK!” or “Hope I Still Have Followers!” or even “Dude, Where’s My Blog?”
The fact that I frequently wear blue nowadays might not sound relevant at all, but it DOES tie into why I have been absent. Or at least very loosely. Oh well, we both know that I like a bit of a challenge. So without further adue, let me give you the whole lowdown as to why I’ve been so utterly absent.
A Meeting in Lover’s Arrival
Some of you that follow me might’ve known that I am in a long distance relationship with a lovely lady from another continent. Well, just a few weeks ago, we had our first meeting after two years strong. That’s right! Two years of Skyping, screen sharing, FaceTiming and the occasional dash of online gaming culminating in an actual face-to-face meeting Down Under. ‘Two Weeks with the Waifu: In the Flesh!’ is what I would call it if it were a comic or a manga or something.
Never been more motivated or encouraged to wear blue clothing before, either. Tis the lady’s favourite choice of hue. Heck, I even bought a rocking denim jacket for the first meeting. I normally don’t like to wear blue but it’s kinda growing on me. I guess that makes me a True BLUE Aussie now, huh? No? That’s fine, I’ll show myself out.
So yeah, she came around. We travelled about. We went to a zoo where the Aussie animals all seemed to be either asleep or hiding. But if you went to the zoo to obseve the average Pokemon GO player, you would not have been disappointed. We certainly weren’t. The next step will involve my own trecherous expedition to the New World, that is, the United States. I’m all sorts of anxious and excited but that ain’t gonna deter me from setting out for a damn good holiday. At least I won’t have to learn another language!
Oh yeah, speaking of languages that I don’t understand, academia. Yes? No, that was a pretty bad joke. Awful segue too. But the pun in the title should say it all for I have officially graduated from my tertiary studies with a diploma, a degree and a tear in my eye!
You’d think after doing two courses, one TAFE and the other from a university, that I would wanna maybe take a break or something. Maybe get a year off to my self before attempting anything else. But like they say, there’s no rest for the wicked on the count of my possible pathway of enduring further studies. That way, I can have TWO degrees. The metaphorical stuffed crust of any resume!
I seem to be running out of steam here. I will admit that I completely forgot about the blog altogether. But after remembering it in an ‘OH SHIT!’ kind of moment, I thought I would check out the News Feed and also make a post to kinda say ‘Hey, I’m not dead, nu-uh.”
No promises on a post anytime soon but I really do hope to get back into the swing of things between job searching, life planning and weekend partying. A cold one downed for every lovely follower!
Seriously, more than 130? I don’t remember having this many! Kudos and thank you!
Oh and P.S: I finally got that new phone. Posting on the go is probably easier than ever now. Can’t wait to read about what everyone’s up to!
Hey, I’m back. Has my cup of web tea gone cold yet?
A few of you who read this blog may be wondering “Jee, Dandy! Just where the hell have ya been these past few months?!” and I would respond with “That’s a damn good question. Just where have I been these past few months?!” as if I were taking the time to recall my activity during the specified span of time.
But that would be kinda stupid since I already know the answer to that. So I will just type that up instead rather than pretend I forgot or didn’t know.
Ya see, during the latter half of 2015, I had began to put 80% of my free time into browsing and posting on Twitter in order to form some kind of social network that revolved around a horribly botched and indefinitely postponed attempt at making a YouTube channel, which had been a bit of a kid dream of mine since my high school years. But unfortunately, life got in the way and now I have found myself completely straying from that path.
So just for convenience sake, I have decided to briefly list and provide a bit of commentary about just what the heck I’ve been getting up to that’s been preventing me from blogging, in no particular order of importance.
1: I had recently started school once again. Actually, I’d spent most of that time trying to figure out what was going on with my course. Classes were being cancelled left, right and centre, teachers and lecturers were either quitting or changing departments and elective classes were only being held at a campus located two hours away from my current one.
2: And speaking of school, I have also just recently started my final bout of work placement/experience. This time, it’s a whopping 300 hours worth of practical study within the field that’ll earn me a pass. Which means that I should totally spend all of my lunch breaks blogging again like last year!
3: My addiction to other social networking sites or “The Treacherous Twitter Saga”. I am definitely not the best at micro-managing or structuring my time when it comes to social networking. Usually, it’s a spur of the moment kind of thing for me. Part of me thought that if I stuck with Twitter long enough (And I did, long enough to amass about 300 + followers) that it would begin to pay off and that I would’ve formed a potential audience for my YouTube content. In the end, that didn’t turn out to be the case. Or maybe I haven’t put enough time into it. I dunno. Lately, I’ve just been doing other stuff during my spare time. Like …
4: Playing tons of video games. Yeah, this was something that I didn’t see coming. I thought my love of video games was slowly withering away like a once magnificent rose, leaving behind only fond memories and borderline sorrowful feelings of nostalgia. But if anything, it’s picking up. Hell, even annual generic shooterfests like the turbo-bro cult classic Black Ops 3 had me pleasantly surprised. But mainly, it’s Bloodborne that has got me absolutely captivated at the moment. Still going too, even after clocking more than 80 hours into the game! And with the upcoming Dark Souls III, Deus Ex: Mankind Divided, Star Fox Zero, Tekken 7 and basically whatever the Nintendo NX has to offer, I think my love of gaming can only reignite my inner gamer.
5: Artistic pursuits. Recently, I had gotten back into making music. Not well, however. In fact, I have come to realise that my music making software is actually very limiting and prevents me from undertaking more ambitious products. Things like the amount of effects and instruments that can be used within a track are capped, which really makes stuff like mastering a track or experimenting with sound all the more difficult. Oh, and did I mention that I make ridiculous, headache inducing glitch art now? I’d show you but I don’t want you to think that I am a loser.
6: Some idiot (me) shaved my head. Everything above is actually false. The real truth is that I have spent 99% of my waking moments in deep meditation in order to grow my hair back as fast as possible before my girlfriend comes over to visit me, otherwise she might reckon I look stupid with short hair and possibly dump me for some handsome vaporwave producer or something. You know, the ones that pretty much live like it’s still the 90s and smell like Pine-O Clean.
So yeah, that’s basically what’s been going on. I will have to check in on everyone else’s blogs and see how all my old friends are doing. I think I had like, one pal. Or at least I think they were a pal … I dunno, they were pretty rad.
I will admit that I am a busy man. Between trying to get Twitter famous, playing unhealthy amounts of Counter Strike and making stupid chiptune on my decrepit four year old MacBook, I haven’t really had a whole lotta time to be writing the blog posts.
So right now, while I’m in the mood, I’d like to take this chance to just sit down and catch up.
So yeah, 2016. Doesn’t feel like it’s gonna be all that different to 2015 but I’m sure you’ve seen enough of those ‘Everything is still trash’ jokes to last you for the rest of the eventual Nuclear Winter or Robot Insurrection that’ll take place in 2018. Also, nanomachines. Those will be a thing. Relax guys and gals, I know all this for a fact. Metal Gear Rising told me all about it.
But all credible predictions of future events taken from video games aside, I don’t think I will be doing anything too different to last year. At least not for the first half of it. I still gotta search for my second trial of work placement for the third year of my college course. This’ll be the home stretch and after this, I’ll be taking a break from studying for a good few months. This will be an amazing time to get back in tune with what I love doing, like talking over video games while I play them with either friends or filmed in front of a live studio audience … or YouTube. YouTube will also be good. But that brings me to another issue that I face and that issue starts with a capital M.
Money. Money is what I want. Money is what I ain’t got. Money is what I need. Money is what sets me free. I don’t got money but I certainly got love. Love love love, love is what I got.
Money is a big problem. You see, I’m a couple decades old now and apart form my few hundred hours of work experience done through college AND my countless days spent volunteering, I have yet to actually work a paying job. i don’t know what it is about volunteer work. It’s basically the same as work, except I just don’t get paid. And that’s not an issue in the slightest, I love working for no pay. But with upcoming expenditures for things like a replacement mobile phone, new desktop computer and video and audio recording hardware, I’m going to be needing a steady flow of cash. Also, gas money. Thank the ancient astronauts that built my car for putting a four cylinder in it. Although I’m still bitter that it’s not fusion powered … And that it doesn’t fire ionised particle beams from the rear to dissuade tailgaters.
Oh, you might’ve noticed that I’ve written a lot more than usual. Yeah, that’s partially thanks to this scissor switch keyboard that I managed to find. I think I bought this thing back in my early high school years and used it for MSN Messenger on the Xbox 360.
Hey, we only had one computer in the house and I wasn’t allowed on it. Leave me alone.
But all jokes aside, it’s great! There’s something about a nice heavy and clunky keyboard that reminds me of the old mechanical Apple Desktop Bus ones. Those things rocked so hard, even though they didn’t have those ‘clicky’ keys. Oh how I wish ADB could be converted to USB without a bunch of electrical engineering tier tinkering. That way, I could mash those weighty keys with my hand sanitiser cleansed fingers while I type up another storm like this one. Or write haikus. Those things are mad cool. Look, I’ll show you. Here’s one I wrote a few days ago:
I shall take flight now,
Like the brilliant falcon,
I endure the rain.
original poem do not steal
Anyways, I am going to leave you all to it. I hope you all have a wonderful week. I really should bring myself up to speed on what my fellow bloggers have been up to. I haven’t had a chance to trawl through the seemingly bugged Reader on WordPress. The one that keeps showing me the same blog entries over and over again, even after flicking a page over. Someone really should look into that. Or maybe the fault is on my end …
Couldn’t care less about the GDP. I only care about the GDC.
I honestly don’t know what I was thinking when I wrote that title. I thought I’d keep it anyway because not only do I like it but I feel as though my brain would overheat like a pre-2005 computer running Crysis and then proceed to liquify through my ear holes if I tried to actually muster the effort to cognitively craft a more relevant one.
I really haven’t been blogging much at all. I think I’ve written like, ten posts about the same issue but being the apologetic scrub that I am, I feel the need to say sorry a thousand more times to ward off a bitter metaphorical bludgeoning. Since the Holiday season is pretty much around the corner, I think I’ll take this opportunity to wish everyone a Happy Holidays, just in case I don’t end up blogging again in the near future due to Holidays related stuff. Or don’t blog ever again after the excruciating yet delectable death by Christmas ham.
So, Happy Holidays everyone! And in case I don’t end up chatting to you before the year is up because I’m too busy smuggling protein bars in my messenger bag or something, have a Happy New Year!
I’ll just leave you with some footage of the upcoming year …
Lately, at night, I’ve found myself succumbing to crippling anxiety which often ends up becoming a full blown panic attack. It normally starts off as I decide to get some shut eye. For whatever reason, the racing thoughts through my head seem uncontrollable and often ‘loud’ as I’m about to doze off.
Does anyone else feel this way? If you deal with anything anxiety related, would you chuck a pal some tips on how to deal with it?
I’d really appreciate any help right now. Going to bed at 2 AM on a daily basis is starting to mess me up.